“You think you kno me, but you have no idea.”
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I never wanted to
Thursday, March 31, 2011 || 8:38 PM
"cherishing is for cherries. we can't cherish when there is no cherry on top of the cake!"
me: Don't waste your time on me. I don't want you to.
you: I've made up my mind too... I'll be waiting for you till you come home. I don't care if you want me or not. And I'm not wasting my time.
You told me again and again that you're gonna wait for me. But the problem is, you don't kno how long it takes and I don't kno how long it would actually take to heal an alien heart, one like mine.
So forgive me for saying goodbye for I am a really difficult child.
365.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011 || 4:09 AM
In life, you're going to come across people who will say all the right things at all the right times.
And somewhere along the year, you surprise yourself.
Happy anniversary sweetheart.
PS: Your drawing is as good as a small kid's. =p
Stranger.
Monday, March 7, 2011 || 9:46 AM
Because the more you change,
the more I feel that I don't kno you anymore,
Considering the fact that I knew you for ages,
it's really sad, very sad.
oh hello baby
Wednesday, March 2, 2011 || 5:14 AM
In Digital Illustrator class just now......
Lecturer: is this the singer who sang "just the way you are"?
Me: err yeaaa
Lecturer: ohh no wonder he looks familiar.
Me: You've probably seen him fetching me home from here before.
Lecturer: *laughs* well keep it up. From my table, i thought it was a real photograph.
Crazy.
But I'm happy. :)
11 days later
Tuesday, March 1, 2011 || 6:22 AM
It was the 19th of February, probably hours after I officially turned 2-0. The night before, I gave the ones I was close to a really difficult time, maybe because I was expecting something, something to spark off my special day. But I sat at home all day, minding my own business and the only person that responded to my calls, were nacho and adik(my cats). I even thought it was my worst birthday ever. Because everybody was too busy for me. Time and time again, you tried to calm me down but I was too blinded by emotions that I didn't care about how you felt when I was throwing them at you. You just took it all in and said, "I'll make it up to you tomorrow."
So when that afternoon came, I arrived in a dress my younger sister bought for my birthday. Little did I kno that my bestfriends were already anxiously waiting to surprise me. And you guys got me alright. It was so good to see how you guys managed to put everything behind and planned that day for me. Although it was nothing much, but I appreciated it, every single bit of it. With all of my heart, I do.
This month, marks a year of being together with you, I am sincerely sorry to say, that's 10 months more than how long I had predicted it to be. It has been scary. I realized my fears, what has been stopping me back and what has keep me going. I realized how easily I wanted to give up on us, because I grew up believing in one thing that stays very close to me, karma. And my weak heart cried to give up and let it go. But how you struggled through everything just to make me fight on and stay, what you spoke about word to word, your every tear, is what that has kept me going.
So as of now, I would want to forget about the little big things we fought about, the little big things we were upset about, the little big things I may have cried for, the tiniest huge things I whined about. For everyday, is a new day.
Don't let me down.
