“You think you kno me, but you have no idea.”

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Dear Mum,
I miss you. I wish someday, you'd understand how it really feels.

Dear Natasha,
I hate how much you make me hate you sometimes.

Dear Heart,
I never meant to hurt you. I'm sorry.

Dear Boyfriend,
I wish you're here.

Dear friends,
Stand by me.

Dear Life,
I had a dream how you would be. So different from this hell I'm living. So different now from what it seemed. Now you killed the dream I dreamt. So listen, I need you to do me an enormous favour. Just fuck off.


It’s funny how hello always ends with a goodbye.
It’s funny how good memories can start to make you cry.
It’s funny how many promises ended up broken.
It’s funny how friends can just leave you when you’re down.
It’s funny how when you need someone they’re never around
It’s funny how people change and think they’re so much better.
It’s funny how many lies can be packed in one “love letter”.
It’s funny how people forgive even though they can’t forget.
It’s funny how one might can contain so much regret.
It’s funny how ironic life turns out to be.
But the funniest part of all, none of that’s funny to me.


farna: maner ader. Alah, my sch starting anws. Your school's near wad. You can drop by my sch for lunch ke. LOL.
sasa: Oh welcome love. =) Enjoyed your stay here? ahahah
farain: eh eh cakap orang pandai eh. look in the mirror first pls. nyahah.
merah: errrrrrr... i dunno. what say you? =)


"I will miss my friend, my belo friend, Nadiah nabilah nabilah nadiah." - Serisantai.


And to serisantai, even tho you don't tag, hahaha, but i just wanna say it's ironic how you and I became close despite how much we dislike each other at first sight. Thank you for the everyday nonsense you lay on the table for me. Tolong eh, shift to the westside please. hahaha. And no, I am not sombong! grrr.






Gee. I wonder how my new classmates are like. =/


So yes, as much as it hurts me to tell you that this is the last weekend left till I'm back to the prison... I mean, school but, it's true. =/ My social life's gonna end once Monday comes. *MEGA HUGE SIGH* Okay, I'm exaggerating but you get my drift. It feels like I've wasted my holidays away. It's a shame, really... There was so much... I looked forward to. Oh well. Tick tock tick tock and it's back to school. =/ A whole different, unfamiliar modules awaits. I can already feel the pressure just looking at my time table again. =s I kno nothing ever gets easier. just a lot harder. I'm afraid for my future, to be quite honest. These constant thoughts of what if i don't make it? What if I can't cope with it? It could drown me alive. Then I suddenly had a thought of what it would feel like on my Graduation day and I get excited, for no apparent reason. =/ But it felt good, nevermind, I'll hold on to that feeling. ^^

I'll just keep moving forward, I guess that's the trick to it. To let go of the fear and the pressure that slow us down and keep us from enjoying a journey that will be over too soon. Yes, there will be unexpected bends in the road, shocking surprises we didn't see coming... but that's really the point, don't you think?


"We're already in this shithole, might as well we make the best out of it." - Aizat (Y)